I have reconnected with my old lover!

Running and I have had a love hate relationship. I use to  hate running especially when I was in the Army. I think I ran because I had to and to get it over with faster I ran faster. Fast forward 5 years!  5 years, 2 kids and about 40 pounds later-LOL I started running again. I started running maybe 4 months after my 2nd son was born. If felt great. It was ME time out of the house no disruptions!!! I ran at least 2x a week then I joined my first race it was a 5k it was cool then I did another one and another. I then completed my first 10k which is the picture above, and it felt good!

When I move to Florida I fell off. It was 100 degrees in the shade, at 5 in the morning and 11 at night-LOL well maybe not that hot but it was damn hot. I just gave up! I am now realizing I love running again. I do not run the distances I use to only because I need to build myself back up and lose some more weight to be a bit lighter on my feet . I think I will stick to it this time. I use to hate the treadmill but now he and I are friends for HITT training so its the best of both worlds:)

I am officially on shopping Ban!

I need to keep myself motivated on the weight loss journey and I thought what better way to do it than to ban myself from going shopping! Is this going to hard.....YES!!! I live downtown and whenever I go walking I am almost likely to go into a store. I plan on leaving my money at home along with my credit cards. I will only take enough to enjoy a snack if I am hungry.
My ban will be over when I reach 150 pounds or June sometime in the middle of the month when I leave to go to Boston and New York. I figure why buy more now when I can get better items in the states and a better body to make it look good:)
Also as I lose weight I will be able to fit into some of the clothing I have not worn in about 2 years. Hello 7 jeans I am coming to getcha~!

The reality of my natural hair

I attempted to straighten my uneven as hell hair but was not really impressed. I  know I have to give it time to grow but I am becoming impatient.

I have had a few weaves since my bc and the last one made me realize I liked my hair relaxed better.

I get bored easily-I may have ADD-LOL the whole natural thing is getting a bit old. I am kinda tired the whole elitism that some of us as natural put off and I am tired of detangling my damn hair-lol

I feel as though my hair is becoming a task and I just do not like it. I do not like the large amount of money I have spent on products, nor am I feeling the Don King looking twist outs anymore:)

I will be relaxing in the summer, sometime around my 1 year anniversary. It would be dumb to do it now because I do not have any hair and I would have to get it cut into a style to have it look good.

I remember listening to India Arie I am not my hair and feeling the lyrics. When I big chopped I was like wow freedom. Then my hair began to grow and I started to become my hair again. 

I am continuing my healthy hair journey and may try to see how much my hair can grow but I am not promising to grow it long.

It is funny how you get embrace when you say your going natural but when you want to relax people who once supported you look at you like your beneath them.

I believe relaxed will be better for me because all of the cutting that I have done because of split ends will be put behind me. I have always been a daily hair washer so that was never the issue but having to do my hair everyday to look decent in my eye is just too damn time consuming.

I want my old body back!!!

This is me 2 years ago(just removed the stretch marks-LOL). I had already had both of my boys and was determined to get my old body back. I worked out almost everyday need it be a dvd, running or going to the gym. I felt good. I was happy! Fast forward 1 year! I moved to Florida got caught up in the fast food lifestyle and did not realize until ti was to late I was gaining weight.
So I move back to Germany. I hate my body and this time around I had no motivation what so ever so now I am walking around with all of this excess weight wishing there was a quick fix.
So I decided its time to work harder than I have in the past 2 months to get my old body back.
Sunday I went running for 30 minutes. Yesterdays I did yoga for 1.5 hours lift weights and ran for about 20 minutes. Today I am going running! I need to get that  motivation I use to have.
The one thing I know that contributed to my weight loss was my vegetarianism but I am not willing to give up meat this time:) I just need to make smarter choices!

I want this shirt!!!

I have been eyeing this shirt since day one on  the H&M website. I decided not to get it because I would not get it until may according to the shipping details. I was like oh thats too long!!!! Wrong answer!!!! 

Now the shirt is sold out and today I went on the site and found it in a size 16! I am a size 8 in tops so my dilema is should i wait to maybe find one a the H&M stores that I have searched plenty of times of should i buy this big ass size and get it tailored to my body. The shirt is only 9,95 and it get it taken in would not be more than 10 euros I am sure so that 20 bucks. I think it might be worth it-hmmmmm I could buy it and still look around.If i find one before may I could give it to my sister who is a size 16. Decisions, decisions:( 

Okay I have convinced myself to buy it-LOL

Update:: I went back on the site and there was one in a size 10 available!!!So you know I bought it!!!It wont be here until the end of May:(  I guess its not that bad, it will come in time for the good weather so I will not have to cover it up with a jacket.

Persistence pays off!!!

Happy Monday!!!

Unlike most people who dread the beginning of the the week, I love Mondays. To me Mondays represent freedom, Sanity and new adventures:)

How is this possible you may ask? Well after having both of my active boys at home, my sometimes overbearing husband asking me rhetorical questions the entire weekend and no time to myself unless I am in the bathroom or at the gym; I have discovered Mondays have become my Fridays.

All in all I had a good weekend. My birthday was fine and I can not believe I am 31. I remember when my mom turned 31! I am trying to get the best body ever this year. I know if I do not achieve it this year I never will so thats enough motivation for me!

I am going to Yoga in about an hour. I love yoga but I had about a 1 year break and it has never been the same as it was before. I just can not get my body to do the things it once found easy.

Happy Monday to everyone and I hope this week brings you lots of sunshine:)

Outfit of the day

I decided since the weather is not playing fair, why not enjoy it and wear something warm and cosy. I love menswear inspired looks so this is my go at it. 

I put together a plain black turtle neck with a brown blazer some trouser jeans and  I am still at loss at which shoes I will wear. I have these ankle boots I have never worn and its been almost a year since I have had them or my suede brown loafers.Added my shades and scarf and thats it.

Today is just a day with my oldest son decided to keep him home since he has a dr appt today.