It has been a while

I know I have been missing in action but I really have a good reason. I was working-LOL well I took on some extra work with my Unit so I have not had the time to do all the things I could do as a stay at home mom.

See I did no look to thrilled. Excuse my hair its a bit whipped in this pic thanks to the beret that I have to wear.

So what's new

Weight loss was going good then I had some issues in my personal life and went on a binge that lasted almost 2 weeks. So I gained the weight I loss back in all the wrong places-Hating myself!!!

Fashion- I purchased some new items but I am pissed that I have gained so much weight size 12 is snug- I could cry. I did pick up some nice sandals though

Vacation- i am going to Boston for 2 weeks with some time being spent in the NYC super excited to go home. Oh I leave this Friday.....Excited Only negative things is my hubby in Ibiza  this week and I will be gone for 2 weeks so we will not see each other for 3 weeks:(

Hair- I am still happy with my decision to relax. I went almost 8 weeks  and decided to touch it up. This is the longest I have every went between relaxers so I am proud of myself and I only touched up the roots no more root to tip. I used the original Motions relaxer and all of their items to deep condition and wash. I am happy with the results and I got a little bit of growth nothing to sing about though.I have not experienced breakage or excessive shedding(YES!!!)Only negative I want to grow it  but these layers I have is making it hard!

Did I tell ya'll I relaxed my hair?

I sure did and I love it! It has been about 2 weeks since I relaxed. It was so hard to continue this love hate relationship. I had such a hard time with the detangling, single strand knots and split ends galore.
I am not more focused on healthy hair and enjoying my hair and the ample time that I am now have since it has become a breeze to style.

I have reconnected with my old lover!

Running and I have had a love hate relationship. I use to  hate running especially when I was in the Army. I think I ran because I had to and to get it over with faster I ran faster. Fast forward 5 years!  5 years, 2 kids and about 40 pounds later-LOL I started running again. I started running maybe 4 months after my 2nd son was born. If felt great. It was ME time out of the house no disruptions!!! I ran at least 2x a week then I joined my first race it was a 5k it was cool then I did another one and another. I then completed my first 10k which is the picture above, and it felt good!

When I move to Florida I fell off. It was 100 degrees in the shade, at 5 in the morning and 11 at night-LOL well maybe not that hot but it was damn hot. I just gave up! I am now realizing I love running again. I do not run the distances I use to only because I need to build myself back up and lose some more weight to be a bit lighter on my feet . I think I will stick to it this time. I use to hate the treadmill but now he and I are friends for HITT training so its the best of both worlds:)

I am officially on shopping Ban!

I need to keep myself motivated on the weight loss journey and I thought what better way to do it than to ban myself from going shopping! Is this going to hard.....YES!!! I live downtown and whenever I go walking I am almost likely to go into a store. I plan on leaving my money at home along with my credit cards. I will only take enough to enjoy a snack if I am hungry.
My ban will be over when I reach 150 pounds or June sometime in the middle of the month when I leave to go to Boston and New York. I figure why buy more now when I can get better items in the states and a better body to make it look good:)
Also as I lose weight I will be able to fit into some of the clothing I have not worn in about 2 years. Hello 7 jeans I am coming to getcha~!

The reality of my natural hair

I attempted to straighten my uneven as hell hair but was not really impressed. I  know I have to give it time to grow but I am becoming impatient.

I have had a few weaves since my bc and the last one made me realize I liked my hair relaxed better.

I get bored easily-I may have ADD-LOL the whole natural thing is getting a bit old. I am kinda tired the whole elitism that some of us as natural put off and I am tired of detangling my damn hair-lol

I feel as though my hair is becoming a task and I just do not like it. I do not like the large amount of money I have spent on products, nor am I feeling the Don King looking twist outs anymore:)

I will be relaxing in the summer, sometime around my 1 year anniversary. It would be dumb to do it now because I do not have any hair and I would have to get it cut into a style to have it look good.

I remember listening to India Arie I am not my hair and feeling the lyrics. When I big chopped I was like wow freedom. Then my hair began to grow and I started to become my hair again. 

I am continuing my healthy hair journey and may try to see how much my hair can grow but I am not promising to grow it long.

It is funny how you get embrace when you say your going natural but when you want to relax people who once supported you look at you like your beneath them.

I believe relaxed will be better for me because all of the cutting that I have done because of split ends will be put behind me. I have always been a daily hair washer so that was never the issue but having to do my hair everyday to look decent in my eye is just too damn time consuming.

I want my old body back!!!

This is me 2 years ago(just removed the stretch marks-LOL). I had already had both of my boys and was determined to get my old body back. I worked out almost everyday need it be a dvd, running or going to the gym. I felt good. I was happy! Fast forward 1 year! I moved to Florida got caught up in the fast food lifestyle and did not realize until ti was to late I was gaining weight.
So I move back to Germany. I hate my body and this time around I had no motivation what so ever so now I am walking around with all of this excess weight wishing there was a quick fix.
So I decided its time to work harder than I have in the past 2 months to get my old body back.
Sunday I went running for 30 minutes. Yesterdays I did yoga for 1.5 hours lift weights and ran for about 20 minutes. Today I am going running! I need to get that  motivation I use to have.
The one thing I know that contributed to my weight loss was my vegetarianism but I am not willing to give up meat this time:) I just need to make smarter choices!

I want this shirt!!!

I have been eyeing this shirt since day one on  the H&M website. I decided not to get it because I would not get it until may according to the shipping details. I was like oh thats too long!!!! Wrong answer!!!! 

Now the shirt is sold out and today I went on the site and found it in a size 16! I am a size 8 in tops so my dilema is should i wait to maybe find one a the H&M stores that I have searched plenty of times of should i buy this big ass size and get it tailored to my body. The shirt is only 9,95 and it get it taken in would not be more than 10 euros I am sure so that 20 bucks. I think it might be worth it-hmmmmm I could buy it and still look around.If i find one before may I could give it to my sister who is a size 16. Decisions, decisions:( 

Okay I have convinced myself to buy it-LOL

Update:: I went back on the site and there was one in a size 10 available!!!So you know I bought it!!!It wont be here until the end of May:(  I guess its not that bad, it will come in time for the good weather so I will not have to cover it up with a jacket.

Persistence pays off!!!